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shadowglitter) wrote2017-11-25 11:18 am
shadowglitter) wrote2017-11-25 11:18 am
PSL || poe/odin
WAY TO REJECT ME YOU FLIGHTY AIRBORN PIECE OF SHIT! WAY TO FUCK EVERYTHING UP FOR ME AND MY HEART, FOREVER AND EVER, ALWAYS UNTIL FOREVER
HEY YO YOU TOLD ME TO WRITE A LIST SO GUESS WHAT!!!!!! IT'S TIME FOR US TO GET FUNKY AS FUUUUUUCKKKKKKKK
god i am not going to bother formatting this
TO DO LIST:
1. SEXTING FROM BOOT CAMP ringverse AU
2. prince/concubine AU - owain's the prince, poe's a concubine to the king, paranoia and political assassination ensues, etc etc etc etc etc
3. vampire hooker AU?? owain gonna get his gothic goth goth dick wet in that spooky vampire butt
4. HAHA BOOM WE'RE DOING IT I LINKED THE POST DOWN THERE
5. enemies of war AU - owain's a good guy on the bad guy side who almost loses his life trying to save poe even though he's an enemy soldier, poes like What, Shit, Damn, gay shit ensues
6. HNENENGH
7. ANGELS AND DEMONSSSSSSsss
8. 20s AU///?? YES. YES ALRIGHT
9. WW1 AU WHATS Up
10. ?? there was something that was supposed to go here from the kink meme
11. samurai champloo AU what up. chon'sin. Shit
12. bBODYSWAPPpappapp
long-term AU posts:
HEY YO YOU TOLD ME TO WRITE A LIST SO GUESS WHAT!!!!!! IT'S TIME FOR US TO GET FUNKY AS FUUUUUUCKKKKKKKK
god i am not going to bother formatting this
TO DO LIST:
1. SEXTING FROM BOOT CAMP ringverse AU
2. prince/concubine AU - owain's the prince, poe's a concubine to the king, paranoia and political assassination ensues, etc etc etc etc etc
3. vampire hooker AU?? owain gonna get his gothic goth goth dick wet in that spooky vampire butt
4. HAHA BOOM WE'RE DOING IT I LINKED THE POST DOWN THERE
5. enemies of war AU - owain's a good guy on the bad guy side who almost loses his life trying to save poe even though he's an enemy soldier, poes like What, Shit, Damn, gay shit ensues
6. HNENENGH
7. ANGELS AND DEMONSSSSSSsss
8. 20s AU///?? YES. YES ALRIGHT
9. WW1 AU WHATS Up
10. ?? there was something that was supposed to go here from the kink meme
11. samurai champloo AU what up. chon'sin. Shit
12. bBODYSWAPPpappapp
long-term AU posts:
βββ PLEDGED
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[The words weren't from the drink. He meant them, every one, which may have been worse. Every time Odin talks about falling for him, it gets harder, a crack imbedded in the walls of his heart. He swallows, watching Odin.]
[There are words he could say. Words he should say. But they stick in his throat, and suddenly he can't take it, anymore, a hand sliding to cup Odin's jaw before slowly and deliberately drawing him down, leaning in to press a slow, deliberate kiss to Odin's lips.]
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He doesn't pull away.
He wants to ask wait, is it okay for me to do this? even though Poe was the one to initiate things. He wants to apologize, too, like he's fucking up and doing the wrong thing, even though - again, Poe wants this. When he raises his hand again and rests it on Poe's cheek, it's softer than he's ever touched him, and when he closes his eyes and leans into the kiss, it's far more gentle and slow than its ever been.
He wants to say I fucking love you again. Wants to scream it from the rooftop, even if it ruins everything they have again. He bites it down and focuses on what this is, as his other hand presses into the small of Poe's back to push him closer into Odin's body. This is just-- Poe taking him, in whatever way he wants to. He cant expect more than that. ]
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[The sharp edges of glass in his chest don't leave - instead, they are stirred by fluttering wings that he wasn't expecting.
He's kissed Odin before, many times. Usually they were hot and hungry and desperate, a physical need and physical reaction. This? This was not that.
He has to break the kids for a moment just to breathe, his heart suddenly slamming in his chest far faster than he anticipated.
Both his body and his heart had already known how badly he wanted this. They were already miles ahead of him, and he resumed the kiss, slow and even but pressing deeper.]
I want you, Owain.
[A groaning whisper into the man's mouth as Poe's fingers curled into his hair.]
I have- no right to- but I missed you so much--
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He inhales sharply when Poe curls his fingers against him, and he finally, finally shuts off his brain. He'll panic about this later, if he has to panic at all. The taste of Poe on his lips, the feel of him, it floods so much hope and fear and love and despair through him that his hands are still shaking under it all, even now.
He-- he has to make this physical, he has to make this physical, he has to make this physical. He doesn't trust himself to keep kissing Poe like this, soft and gentle. He'll ruin it, he'll ruin it, he'll ruin it.
He's never shown Poe his full strength before - the strength he's earned from countless hours toiling over weights or fighting off monsters twice his size with nothing but his sword and his wits. He doesn't ask for permission, when he loops one arm under Poe's hips and the other beneath him. He just picks him up, staggering slightly to the wall of the room and sandwiching Poe against it, a little rougher than he means to be when he slams the pilot's back against the wall. He grunts as he breaks the kiss, looking at Poe's neck to avoid meeting him in the eyes. ]
Legs-- around my waist. So I can hold you.
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[Poe is oddly silent, nothing more than a very quiet grunt as his back hit the wall. In any other situation, he would have been hard as a rock, right now, but Odin won't meet his eyes and his chest feels like it's in tatters. The strength doesn't worry him, but the silence does, and that isn't abated when Odin speaks.
It's an order, not a reply.
He does what he's told.
He uses an arm around Odin's shoulders to brace himself as he grips his legs tightly around Odin's waist. He isn't sure he wants this. He wants that kiss, again, the one that felt like love.
But this is far closer to what he deserves.]
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Even with his hand under Poe's ass, though, holding him hard against the wall as he softly grinds his body into him, and even with the way his breathing picks up with every grunt Odin milks out of himself, it - it doesn't last, this raw energy he's trying so hard to force. It doesn't fucking last. It can't last, not like this. He doesn't want to do this, he doesn't want to treat Poe like nothing between them has changed, even though that's what tonight seems to be about.
The kisses turn softer, but Odin fights it. Every time his lips quiver and pause against Poe's - every time his breath stutters to a stop in his throat and he just stands there, for a second - he pushes forward again, biting at Poe, trying to be rough. But his resistance gets weaker, as time goes on, and it's-- five minutes, barely even that, before he stops accidentally banging Poe against the wall and just... holds him against it, instead.
There are tears in his eyes, again, as he looks at Poe's lips. With his hands holding Poe, he can't wipe them away, so he blinks hard to get rid of them. He wants to look at Poe properly, wants to speak, but he's still so scared that tonight is a fragile impossibility that someone as fucking worthless as he is could break at a moment's notice.
With Poe still in his arms and with his back to the wall, Odin leans forward, resting his head against Poe's neck. He sighs, gently, his breath a whisper on Poe's skin, and so much of his energy drains away from him.
This fucking sucks. ]
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[He responds, but automatically-- each hard kiss and bite feeling more and more mechanical, a gaping hole opening deep in his chest. A part of him just wants to be punished for treating Odin this way, and it's that part that keeps his mouth shut during those five minutes, kept his body moving against him.
When Odin finally stops, the relief flooded him - hadn't realised just how much he didn't want to do that until he no longer had to. He would have gone with it, to punish himself, but he didn't want it. Not like this.
He let out a long, slow breathe, head tilting so he could press his lips to Odin's forehead and just linger there, breathing against him.]
... Not like this.
[His voice is a whispered murmur against Odin's skin, and his eyes shut as he leans against him, still pinned to the wall.]
... I want you, Owain, but not like this.
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Owain nods, slowly, into Poe's neck. He feels the same exact way, and while he's still not saying anything, he wants to just - stay like this, for a moment, frozen in time, feeling the weight of Poe's body in his arms. His tears are coming a little more freely, now, finally actually rolling down his cheeks. For the millionth time, he hates that he's like this.
He gently eases away from Poe, letting his feet hit firmly on the ground, and he wipes his eyes on the heels of his palms. He wants to apologize, for trying too hard, but he still can't find a voice, so the words never leave him. He's still not looking at Poe, exactly, but he does take his wrist and guide him to the bed. When he lays down, he gently but insistently tugs on Poe's hand to bring him down with him.
It's not-- that he doesn't want this. He does, more than anything. He's just this terrified mess of a kid, waiting to fuck up and ruin this, and he's already convincing himself that that's what he just did, by trying to make this-- rawer, like it used to be. He takes a deep breath and moves his fingers until they're interlocking with Poe's, and he holds his hand almost tight enough to hurt. He looks at Poe, finally, meeting him in the eye, sad and helpless and wanting and needy and so, so, so full of love. He just - wants this, already. Wants Poe.
But for once in his fucing life, it would be nice if he just knew how to do something. ]
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[If Owain hadn't tugged Poe to the bed, Poe would have tugged him, instead. So it takes very little for him to be pulled down. He shuffles close to him, fingers intertwined, and he presses a gentle kiss to Owain's shoulder as he curls around him.
He raises a hand, thumb carefully tracing the trail of tears, brushing them from Owain's cheeks. He lets out a long breath and then smiles, sadly, despite himself, when Owain finally meets his gaze. He rubs his cheek again, slowly, the pad of his thumb brushing over skin. He doesn't think he's ever met someone with a heart like Odin's.
It's his greatest sorrow, to know he broke it.]
[There is a long, silent moment, as he just observes him, and then very slowly moved closer to take a long, soft kiss.]
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He lets himself imagine that he and Poe are together. He imagines, when he runs his free hand down Poe's cheek and brushes a strand of that perfect fucking hair away from his eyes, that this is just - a sunday morning, or something, where they can sleep in until early afternoon, if they want to, just laying in bed, silently giving each other butterfly kisses not because they're afraid to put words to what they want but because they're so comfortable with each other they don't need to talk. His broken heart aches in his chest, when he parts his lips to make this kiss just the tiniest fraction deeper, but he does his best to lock that feeling away.
He thinks of his mom's ring, in his back pocket. He's been carrying it so much closer than normal, since coming back from space. When he imagines giving it to Poe and Poe's eyes lighting up, his heart thuds a little faster, and he revels in that, begging the voice in his head reminding him that it will never happen to please just let him pretend that it will.
He breaks the kiss and closes the distance between them even further, tangling their legs together a little more and letting their bodies make contact. It doesn't take long, when he does this, for Owain's heart to stop thudding anxiously against his ribcage. Being near Poe relaxes him, makes him whole, even now - it's why he wanted this moment so bad, and why he was willing to make himself hurt so much for it. He brings the hand he's holding up to his lips, gently kissing one of Poe's knucles, and he looks Poe in the eyes, sighing softly. ]
I'm...
I missed... this. I miss this. I miss you.
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Yeah.
[It's a quiet murmur, and Poe is simply gazing at him, brushing his knuckles gently over Owain's cheek. Their limbs are entangled and Poe's heart feels like it's in his throat, but he couldn't pull himself away now if he wanted to.]
I... I've missed you so much, Owain. I still miss you.
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He shuts his eyes tight, at Poe's words. He takes a breath. ]
Don't.
[ He lets that hang in the air, alongside a dozen unasked questions. He rests his hand on Poe's side, snaking his hand under his shirt and drawing lines on his hipbone with his thumb. He opens his eyes. ]
Don't miss me. You don't have to miss me. All this-- all this shit, about you having to figure things out and about me being patient-- if that's really how you want this to play out, I can do it, I can, I swear, I'll wait until I draw my very last breath, if you only ask, but-- but it doesn't have to be like that. You could just... let me be something. You wouldn't have to-- have to label it, or give me any promises about how we'll always be together, or that you won't one day leave me for someone else, but I just--
[ He brings his head forward, kissing Poe's neck, and it's-- it's not rough, like at the wall, but it's so much needier now, quiet and soft but decidedly hungry. When he speaks, he murmurs low against Poe's throat. ]
Please? Just-- give me more than words like I miss you and I want you. Show me that I matter to you.
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[Show me.
He didn't know how. There was no fight to throw himself into, no blaster bolt to take. No sacrifice. He couldn't save his life, nothing to save him from. No enemies to blast out of the sky.
He had no wounds, as proof.
He didn't know how else to show anything. He didn't know how else to do anything. He was getting sick to death of feeling like he was a square peg in a round hole, trying to fit in somewhere he didn't understand. It would have been an easy thing to prove, in a war.
And an impossible thing to do in peace.
But damn, if he wasn't going to try. He pulled Odin'd head up, forcing him to meet his eyes.]
I'm here, aren't I? [He pressed his forehead to Odin's.]
I'm not good at the words part. I don't know how to- prove myself. But I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere.
[He leaned, breath warm against Owain's lips before he took them carefully, his whole body leaning in against him with the kiss.]
... So you can have... And piece of me you need, Owain.
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It's not what he needs. It's just what he wants. So he shuts his eyes into the kiss and tries to drown out the part of him that still just wants Poe to be his and his alone, because even if he's not, long term, he is for tonight.
The longer he kisses Poe, curled up against him in this hotel room, the slower his heart beats, soon only thudding against him in a painfully loud but steady rhythm. He tries not to plan for the future, as he deepens the kiss, timid like it's their very first time doing this. He tries not to think of all the parts of this he hates, because he thought - he thought he'd never have this again, Poe in his arms. Not again. This is worth... hurt.
He freezes, suddenly, like something's wrong, or like he's scared and about to bolt. There isn't, and he's not, but it's stuttery and anxious when he moves his hand and starts tugging on the bottom hem of Poe's shirt. He doesn't have the confidence to strip him, like he would have done a month ago - or even a minute ago, when he was pretending he could get through this by being physical alone - but it's obvious, that that's what he wants. He breaks the kiss and takes a deep breath. ]
We don't--
We don't have to do anything. Like I said. We can just-- talk, or we can just stay like this, kissing, or-- or holding hands. I'd like to hold your hand, I think. We don't-- have to do anything else.
But I'd-- like to.
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He didn't say anything. Didn't trust himself to. Instead he moved Owain's hands with him drawing up the edge of his shirt and the pressing Owain's hand to the bare flesh of his chest as it was revealed. His own heart rate was anything but slow, even now, and he pressed Owain's finger tips right above his heart, each shuddering beat vibrating through him.
He didn't speak, he just leaned in again, taking a deeper kiss, this time, panting softly against Owain's lips when he had to break it to breathe. He shifted so that he could pull his own shirt up over his head, and then his fingers went for his belt.]
HEY REMEMBER THIS THREAD
Maybe that's all he needs. All he's ever needed. Poe's hand in his.
Owain lets Poe direct him to his chest, and he traces the tip of his finger over the scars that cover his heart. They're physical, just surface blemishes that mar his chest, but Owain is sure they cut deeper than that, and he wishes he had more than just tonight to try and heal them. He looks into Poe's eyes, as that heartbeat thuds through him, and any fragmented parts of him that weren't resolved to do this piece themselves back together. His heart wouldn't beat like that, for him, if he didn't mean something.
He's not aggressive, when they kiss, but he's always lingering. Every time Poe takes a break to breathe, he follows after him, sighing against his lips and waiting, impatiently, for more. Every time he grazes the side of Poe's tongue with his own, he curls his fingers against Poe's chest, nails dancing raking softly over burned and calloused skin. He helps tug at Poe's belt and unzips him, reaching a hand down to stroke Poe's cock, gentle, gentle.
He wraps his fist around the head, feeling Poe's warmth pulse into his palm, and then he pauses. Looks into Poe's eyes, again. Lovingly, the way he always does. ]
I want you to fuck me. [ He swallows. ] If that's - okay. I know it's normally-- that I normally... the other-- the other way around. [ He clenches his jaw tight. ] But it'd-- I'd feel safe. With you. I think. If you're... we don't have to. I don't really know what to do? But I've always-- you're the only one. I think. That I could do that with. So...
I-I don't know. Bad idea?
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But he can't help but moan, at that - at the idea of taking him, of being able to illustrate how he felt with every shuddering roll of his hips--]
... No. Not a... Not a bad idea-- Owain-- Force, I want that so badly-- [He pressed his face to Owain's throat.]
But I don't-- Owain, the only damn thing I want is to know that you feel amazing- I would do anything, if it meant you could lose yourself with me for a moment--"
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Okay.
[ He presses his lips to the top of Poe's head, breathing in the scent of his hair before breathing out. ]
Don't be a douchebag if I suck at it. [ He tries to laugh, to break the tension, but it comes out awkward and nervous like the rest of him. He swallows, dry. ]
Should I just-- do I just-- lay down?