The sated smile diminished slightly as he watched Owain's fade, but he shook his head to the question.
"No."
He was pretty sure of that.
There was a lot of reasons why what he had just done was probably a terrible idea - if not an outright immoral one - but he couldn't bring himself to regret it. It had been impulsive, sure, but it had... felt right. In the moment.
And it still felt right, now.
He shifted, turning onto his shoulder and shifting a little closer, to take a feather-light kiss from Owain's lips.
"No," he repeated in a low murmur, before pulling back to meet Owain's eyes. "You?"
His heart flutters, and he shuts his eyes into the kiss, only slowly drawing them open when Poe repeats his answer. He swallows, shakes his head almost imperceptibly.
"No." He finds Poe's hand and holds it in his own, and--
And it's not true. Not really. Nine years of training are hitting him like a freight train, thoughts are piling on top of each other, all of them calling him disgusting and shameful and a disappointment to his ancestry.
He can compartmentalize it. He squeezes Poe's hand, treating it like an anchor.
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"No."
He was pretty sure of that.
There was a lot of reasons why what he had just done was probably a terrible idea - if not an outright immoral one - but he couldn't bring himself to regret it. It had been impulsive, sure, but it had... felt right. In the moment.
And it still felt right, now.
He shifted, turning onto his shoulder and shifting a little closer, to take a feather-light kiss from Owain's lips.
"No," he repeated in a low murmur, before pulling back to meet Owain's eyes. "You?"
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"No." He finds Poe's hand and holds it in his own, and--
And it's not true. Not really. Nine years of training are hitting him like a freight train, thoughts are piling on top of each other, all of them calling him disgusting and shameful and a disappointment to his ancestry.
He can compartmentalize it. He squeezes Poe's hand, treating it like an anchor.
"No."