There's no "should" to this. People you cared about are gone. No matter where they are, there's a hole in your life and it's shaped just like them. You've got all this love in your heart that can't go anywhere, 'cause the people who the love is for can't love you back anymore. It's okay to be overwhelmed by that. It's natural, not selfish.

People are gonna tell you that your friends are probably happy, so you should be happy for them, but. Don't let anyone guilt you into feeling anything other than how you feel. The only thing that'll make this better is time.

[ he puts his arm around archie and squeezes his shoulders a little. this is hard. he understands. ]