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[ Poe gave Owain a faintly helpless, amused look. ]

People do have to choose priorities, though. Sometimes your whole squad is in a fire fight. You can't save all of them. That's just how some things are.

[ He's not going to totally beleaguer the point, though. It's not something he thinks that Owain would know the answer to, anyway.

He looks even more bemused as Owain continues. ]

Great hypothetical, completely unlikely in practice.

They're - I can barely get them in a room together, Owain. They died within days of each other on the opposite side of a war. Like I said. Complicated.

[ Slooooowly arches his eyebrow. ]

Said the guy who flew a plane into a nuke sixty times in a blindly eager attempt to save everyone. Said the guy who keeps befriending enemies to his side of the war because he values people more than directives. Said the guy who would break his leg jumping from this very roof top if someone on the ground screamed out for help.

[ Eat shit, not buying it. ]

Look, maybe it won't work out now, and maybe this'll be too much for Bodhi in particular - but you haven't exactly been doing a stellar job maintaining your relationships so far, and I really think a part of it is because you've been hating yourself for not being the way you want to be and struggling to meet expectations that are in your own head. Maybe you need to be honest with what you want. Maybe that's why your power keeps acting up on its own.

[ Owain was absolutely right in calling him out, and Poe sort of raised his hands in a 'okay, okay, I concede' gesture before folding them back in his lap. Yeah, he deserved that. It didn't mean it wasn't something that he didn't worry about, though. He didn't like being made to chose between people he cared about, in any situation. But maybe that was Owain's point.

As the other man continued, Poe sighed and raised a hand to scrub through his hair. ]

... Yeah. Maybe. I just think it's a lot to dump on a guy who literally is only just starting to figure out how any of it works at all, you know? I don't think patience is a bad thing.

Maybe? But - intimidating him a little might not be a bad thing. He's a veteran - they don't scare easy. And... it's probably better for you to start this relationship with him on an open and honest foot instead of on the slightly tortured and depressing one you're delicately balancing on now.

[ Plus - again - Bodhi's feelings should be taken into account here, too. Can't pretend like he's not a part of this. ]

All I'm trying to say is that you need to start taking yourself a little more seriously. Give real thought to what you want and be honest about it, to yourself and to everyone else. Make healthy decisions. Do things that benefit you and the people you love entirely, instead of just in part. Stop making sacrifices before you know you have to. Otherwise, you're gonna keep hurting people.

[ "People" includes Poe himself, but Owain kind of figures if he says "you're hurting yourself by doing this", Poe'll say that that's okay and double down without listening. So. Can't say that!!!! ]

... Are you annoyed with me for giving you so much unsolicited advice, yet?

[ Poe sighed, staring off into the distance. It sounded like a good point, and he could find a reason to argue it, but at the same time he had a feeling that Odin was making it sound a hell of a lot easier than it was.

Either way, at the last question he turned his head and arched an eyebrow at him. ]

I literally messaged you for advice, Owain. That doesn't count as unsolicited.

[ He frowned, looking back out do the city line. ]

And I'm not annoyed. I appreciate it more than you know. Don't know if that means that I really have any idea to do with all of it, but. I appreciate it.

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