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To be fair, I'm a sensitive baby with a heart of a pure and delicate maiden. I'm the flexible willow with branches that drift and sway in the wind.
Finn's the kind of guy who just has, like, a massive cock. You can tell. Gigantic greatsword. Thick. Hefty. Bigger than mine.
Balls of brass. Actual brass. Not a euphemism. Real, genuine brass down there.
(Please don't confirm or deny any of this, because even though I haven't been jealous and miserable thinking about you having sex with other people for a while, I don't want to fall back into those briny depths.)

My point is,
I don't think he'll be as emotionally susceptible to flights of tragic heartache like I was.
He'll be able to handle anything that comes his way.
Besides, you're friends, first and foremost. Friends hurt each other sometimes, but they get through it.

yeah new rule no talking about dicks we've seen
i'm going to gently erase that block of text from my memory

and yeah

i know you're right

but i'm real tired of hurting the people i want to protect
that's all

It's like setting a bone. Ripping off a bandaid.
You're a soldier, not a medic, and I understand that, but sometimes you need to be a bit of both.

[ There's a significant pause before he replies. ]

yeah.

just if you guys meet and fight santas for some reason maybe don't mention it until you know i have

There is no universe in which I would be willing to hang out with Finn.

[ that's not true, ugh, he's just a baby. finn's a cool dude, odin would love to get to know him. he's a hero, odin adores heroes. he can't hold a grudge, even if he might want to.

still.

hard to backtrack and say that after being a dick. ]

[ He wasn't expecting that. He has no idea how to reply to it. He just stares at it for a couple of minutes, gut twisting in an extremely unpleasant way.

Right. Cool.

No baggage at all. ]

... right.

think i'll leave you to it for the night, then

catch you around

Okay.

[ Okay.

Okay. ]

I didn't mean that. I don't know why I said that.
It's just weird. Right?
It's weird. Me and Finn. Isn't it? It's weird.
It's totally weird.
Tell me that's not super duper weird. To imagine.
Me and Finn.
Friends.
That's not weird to you?

not my call, owain.

but there's a far cry between being friends and refusing to hang out with a guy in any universe

i'd rather you go back to just hating me, thanks

I never hated you?
I'm just being melodramatic. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it.
I'll literally go and hang out with him right now, just to prove that I didn't mean it. Don't think I won't. I totally will! I'll burst into his messages like a meteor shredding apart the earth's crust with my flaming and calamitous body.
Try and stop me, you dumb idiot. You big dork.

i'm not going to make you hang out with him

just
if you don't mean it don't say it

i wouldn't put up with someone acting like that about you, either

though i will say completely seriously that your boyfriend's dog is better than he is and i absolutely will never take that back

[ ugh, he feels like a dick. he really didn't mean it, it was just a kneejerk reaction. he feels a little sick, and even though he hadn't actually been planning on talking to finn, well - now he makes the decisive decision that he's going to, and it's going to be great, and they're going to be best friends. no, scratch that. they're going to be BEST FUCKING FRIENDS ]

Mn.

Don't tell him I said this - or her, for that matter -
But I like Peter more than Rooty.
Just a little.

what
no
you're kidding
that's impossible

well i'll keep your secret

though i think the cat might already be out of the tent on that one

wait that doesn't sound right

[ pfft. ]

No, you got it. Nailed it.
Use that all the time, please. Whenever possible.

i'll put "approved by the famous odin dark" as a subscript every time i use it

bird out of the tent? bird out of the bush? cat out of the can

great
now this is going to bother me all night

Horse out of the X-wing.

[ he could just tell poe the answer, but. eh ]

Listen -
I just want to say that no matter what happens with you and Finn, he's not going to stop talking to you.
You guys are very close. Closer than most people can ever dream to be with someone else.
Nothing's going to change that.

no they don't have x-wings here so it can't be that
also i've seen a horse

if one got in my x-wing it would destroy the whole place

that's a way different tone

[ There's a pause. Sometimes he gets reminded of how much younger Owain is than him, and this is one of those times. There is a lot he could argue there. A lot. There's a hundred thousand things he can think of that would change everything. The only way his relationship with Finn was never going to change in any way shape or form was if one of them died. And the unfortunate truth was that he expected one of them to.

He just hoped he got a little time in first.

But he didn't say any of it ]

yeah
he's a good man

i'm the idiot

so i'm sure we'll be fine

Wait, X-wings aren't big enough to hold a horse?

[ whatever, not important. ]

I mean, you're definitely an idiot, but.

I don't know.
I just don't want you... wasting time again?
Even if you and Finn don't end up being anything romantic, you should still make your time with him as amazing as it can be. Living with this cloud over your head is gonna suck for both of you.

I'm not like... telling you to confess... because we've already talked about that...
But I guess I just want you to, you know. Be... happy.
Is that helpful?
That isn't helpful.

they are single-seat star fighters with a slot for an astromech in the back

no space for a horse

i'm doing my best
just would be nice if the Porter fucking relaxed for once

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