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[quickfingers]

tl;dr it's complicated

[shadowglitter]

Hey,

Thanks for telling me all this. I know we haven't known each other for a long time and I know I can be kind of overwhelming with how quick I am to overshare about certain things about myself, which I guess kind of causes pressure on people sometimes to talk to me about themselves before they're ready?
But it sounds like this is a pretty big thing for you and it means a lot to me that you trusted me with it.
But anyway, Billy sounds like a prick!
Wait, fuck, hold on, let me try again.

I think you're going into this with a really healthy attitude.
People are often really cut and dry about this kind of thing one way or another - "he's your dad, you have to reconnect with him!" or "it doesn't matter if he's your dad, he's a bad guy, don't go near him!". Hot button reactions based on someone's personal stance regarding morality and family and self-preservation.
But.
I think if you're aware of the kind of man he is objectively as well as aware of the kind of man your mother said that he is from her own presumably biased point of view, trying to reach out to him and letting your relationship grow in whatever direction it can grow in naturally is just, like.
Mature? It shows you're not a hateful or resentful person. A good guy who is willing to understand and empathize with a person rather than condemn them, even when a lesser person might not be able to put aside their personal feelings to do so. That's really admirable.

[quickfingers]

billy does sound like a prick

[quickfingers]

I'm his uncle I can call him that

but also yeah

you can still prank my dad tho like
make him suffer a little it's all cool

[shadowglitter]

Please remember who you're talking to before you just hand me that live grenade. The cataclysm of pranks that would surround your father would undoubtedly end in his presumably accidental death.

[quickfingers]

Or yours. But that's the fun in russian roulette?

[shadowglitter]

I'm literally immortal, so that's not even on the table.

[quickfingers]

& Thanks. It's not even that I care about being admirable it's just... I'm tired of hearing and seeing things and taking that as the way of the world. I wanna learn more about it myself & if that means talking to my dad on my own terms, that's cool. He hasn't really asked me for anything, so he seems... receptive. from what I can tell

[shadowglitter]

I think when a person is wise - wise beyond their years, especially, as you're acting right now - finding that person admirable is kind of inevitable.
I've always thought you were cool and funny but I didn't realize you had such a good head on your shoulders as well. It's kind of amazing. I've got a lot of respect for you for this, man.
I hope I'll be able to handle my own eternally-crippling daddy issues so well one day, hahaahahaha hah ah ahahaha hahahahaha

Receptive is good. All he needs to be is receptive for your relationship to improve.
I know it's none of my business, but if there's anything I can do to help from whatever distance you need me to be at, I'm super here for that.

[quickfingers]

one thing: just never refer to this topic as "daddy issues" again. it's a little too real & uncomfortable

[shadowglitter]

Stare unflinchingly into the sun, you coward.
Writhe, screaming, in your daddy issues, as I do mine.