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[h2no]

me and matt are a different situation in regards to how it ended. we knew each other for a long long time before we even showed up here and the problems we had were because of the world ending thing and me being a shit human for a time after.

you can't help insecurity, or anxiety, or really any of the way you are in your brain.
actually i mean you can and i highly recommend you seek out therapy when you get home (actually i insist and i'm going to give you numbers)
but
all that insidious crap in your head, it just tries to bring you down when you don't deserve it even if you think you do

this thing with poe will be resolved one way or another
and honestly?
you're young. we exist on a planet bigger than we can conceive with more people on it than we can conveive.
poe isn't going to be the only person ever who makes you feel that way.

Re: text

[shadowglitter]

right. so reiterating:
it's totally hopeless and the only way forward i'm allowed to take here is the complete and total acceptance that he'll never love me and that holding onto this is just going to hurt. got it.
no offense, but why does everyone I know who tried to end the world end up falling in love and being happy forever? it happened back home, too.
I feel like the whole guardian-of-the-apocalypse thing I've got going on isn't doing me any favors and karmically I'm not sure that's fair.
but whatever.

sorry. shitty attitude.
I don't really want any numbers though.

also.
I get it.
I'm just going to go on and on and on and on about how I want it to be Poe and how I don't want it to be anyone else but I'm just being childish and pathetic and I gotta stop. You're right.

I'm gonna go.
Thanks for talking to me.

Re: text

[h2no]

he's in love with someone else. this isn't about you not being good enough or him secretly hating you. he just has feelings for someone else. you can't control that. hell, HE probably can't control it.

and i don't know. i don't know why that happens and i'm sorry it does, but having someone isn't what makes people happy. neither of us are happy.

i didn't say you were being childish or pathetic. i said over and over this is a human reaction.

go and do your thing. make sure you eat and stay safe up there.

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[shadowglitter]

'kay.
bye.