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[ his mind doesn't leap straight to the porter - he fucking broke down when Poe was ported out for a few days, and Poe isn't threatening to light anything on fire, so... he just assumes it can't be that bad. there must be-- a fight, or something, going on between Poe and The Guy. it'll work out, he's sure, but he'll still offer a shoulder. like a friend should. ]

You wanna get wasted with me when I get back? I'm, um. I'm actually away... for a week. But we can do that. When I get home. I'll take you to the bar Foggy showed me. We can get drunk and start a scene and inevitably get sued for property damage.

i 'm pretty sure if he would, it'd be by accident
he's an idiot
but he's a good man
i know that

[there's a longer pause, to this. It would be so easy, to leave it there- to say sure, yeah, wasted when you come back. To hold his tongue that at least Owain was coming back.

But he had literally just been so fucking furious that Owain had been lying to him, even only through omission, that he... Felt he had to be clear.]

sure

if I don't blow up the porter and get thrown in jail before then

He's the best. I really, really love him. He's-- I don't know. You don't want to hear me go on about it, I bet. Just, I'm happy. Really happy. With him. I didn't even know I could get this happy? It's kind of insane. He's just. Perfect. To me. But. Hey. I'm a big boy. You know that. I can handle myself. You won't have to fight my battles for me. I'll take him out if he tries anything. Shot between the eyes. Pew pew.

[ bleh, hard. feelings. exes. and then--

oh.

oh. ]

Fuck. Sorry. I don't even know what to say. How long?

[He really, really didn't want to hear about how amazing Peter was, but. There was one thing, at least, that was important to address.]

good.

you deserve to be happy, owain.

will still kill him if that ceases to be the case though

[The next pause is a little too long.]

day seven

nothing to say, so don't worry about trying

I'll warn him to stay on the straight and narrow, I guess.

[ day seven, though. there's no delay in odin's reply, but it's typed out very deliberately on his end. mechanically, like he doesn't want to be doing this. ]

Seven days doesn't mean shit. People have been ported out for far longer and they've come back just fine. You'll be okay. Everything will be okay. But. You saw how badly I was losing my mind when you were ported out, and that was only, like, for three days. So. It's okay. If you're not okay. I know what it's like. I think. The worry.

Cassian's been over a month now

It's fine.

It is what it is.

I'm fine.

Either the Porter brings them back, or she doesn't, or she does and they don't remember anything, and either which way there's nothing to do about it. So.

I'm fine.

You don't have to pretend with me, man. We're so far past pretending.

[ a pause. ]

I'll be here, however you need to get through this. Okay? For as long as I'm breathing, as long as my feet are flat on this shitty world's ground, you can talk to me about anything.

Not pretending.

Just.

I've gotta be fine, so gotta tell myself I'm fine. That's it. That's all it is. No time for anything else. So don't worry about it.

[There's a pretty long pause, because he knows that Odin means what he's saying but he also knows it's not true. There are definitely things they can't talk about. But he isn't willing to point that out.]

just

enjoy yourself. be happy. that's all I want.

Yeah... Okay.

[ it's not like he can't understand that. he did that every day, back in the fallen ylisse. he still does it now, every time he goes full odin dark. still.

it sucks. ]

I am. I will. But my phone's on. You can contact me any time.

~~don't worry, I've got your number on speed dial, bu--~~

[... No. No 'buddy'. Not anymore.]

it's fine

we'll catch up when you're back

i'll call if necessary, but
you deserve this, so
just enjoy it

[ he doesn't feel good about leaving poe like this. it feels like he's abandoning him, almost. but he's not going to turn his back on peter, either. despite how long he spent fighting against poe's attempts to create distance, that's not really a choice that's in his hands anymore. the guy who didn't hurt him so, so fucking badly comes first. ]

Make sure you do. Okay? I'm serious. I'll be back soon. Promise. Do you mind if I say something else before I go?

sure, what's up

[ typing, backspacing, typing, backspacing. a solid five minutes pass. ]

I love you. Just remember that. Please. Despite everything else you're feeling. All the grief. Okay? You matter to me and I want you to be okay.

[There's a pause, but it isn't as long as Owain's. Maybe a minute, less than two.]

... i know. don't worry so much.

I love you, too.

Have fun.

[Poe is offline, because that's about as far as he can deal with that.]

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