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And -- Sorry. I know. I won't. I'm sorry. I don't know how to talk about it still. What happened. I haven't told anyone what happened. Just... yeah. Sorry. Still navigating. Let's not talk about that right now.

he might be the same, but i'm not sure i am

i don't know

not totally sure i can believe you, bud, pretty literally have been assured that my friendship costs more than it's worth
maxwell actually cursed at me
"void take you". i'm pretty sure it means the same thing in his world as it would in mine.

and that's not a death you wish on someone lightly

deserved? but still not an idle curse

i'm going to do my best to make it up to everyone but that doesn't mean everyone will want it

i didn't tell peter

i'm not going to force a conversation about it, owain, just don't fucking joke about it again

[ owain's quiet, leaving the conversation about what happened in the past for a little while longer. they'll... get to that. he wants to say he was affected by what happened more than anyone else, so if he thinks poe's friendship doesn't cost more than it's worth, that should say something? but. sounds like he'd just be guilting poe, so he leaves it. ]

Maxwell would've just been upset... it was hard, watching what happened. That's all. Worst case scenario - even if you've burned a few bridges here - you haven't burned any with Cassian. Okay, okay. Listen. Forget everything that's happened for the past few months for a second. Forget all the extenuating circumstances and just... answer this. Do you want to be close to Cassian again?

[Poe rubs his face with a sigh. Forget extenuating circumstances, huh?]

does earth count as extenuating circumstances?

i don't know

maybe

i think so

Then, like.

[ a pause. ]

You've just lost a lot. Finn, Leia. People from home. Connections you've made. You nearly lost me, man. I died in your arms. You've finally got something back. Someone. Maybe not how you know them, but they're... them. He's him. You know? I just know you deserve happiness. I wish you could see that, the way I see that. I don't want you to shut yourself off just because you aren't happy with who you are right now. You both deserve to be in each other's lives. To have someone you can rely on. Don't shatter this before you've got a chance to make it whole.

i'm not going to shatter anything

i just

no
you're right

just not sure how many times i can do this, you know?

if the same things happen
if it goes the same way

how many times can i watch him destroy himself
or watch earth destroy him

That's why I'm saying, like - try to be the person he needs. Try to be there for him? You're not destined to fuck this up. You're not destined to blow everything up. You're not as harmful of an influence as you think you are. Similarly, he's not destined to be destroyed. Fate is far more chaotic than that. Just go into this trying to be the best version of yourself you can be for him. Things don't have to be permanent to count, you know? Even if he's only here for a while again, you could make him happy. That has to be worth something, if he's already seen so much sorrow.