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[shadowglitter]

[ he's moved, as he always is, and it means a lot - but owain's always circling around that point, now, where he doesn't understand how archie can be so kind to him. not because owain thinks he doesn't deserve it; he knows now that he's worth support like this, he knows he's allowed to have a backbone and still lean on another person's shoulder now and again, but he doesn't know if he deserves it from archie. time and time again, he feels like he hasn't been a good friend to archie. and more to the point -

if archie can be this kind to him, why can't he be so kind to himself? odin's reply is short and to the point. ]

I wish you would show yourself as much kindness as you always show me.

[h2no]

[he's not really sure how to respond for a good few moments. there's no notable delay, but archie's brain certainly takes what feels like an eternity to process the simple question. he settles on a reply that's actually truthful, for once, not just hitting him back with the obvious "i'm fine" lie.]

i'm getting there, owain. it's taking a while because of various set backs, but i'm still trying.
i think if i can get through something as bad as the relic on top of matt being ported out then i can probably pull myself out of anything.
though having people around to help pick my fat ass up when i trip and fall down a sewer hole certainly helps.

[shadowglitter]

I want to be that. For you. I want to be the emotional pillow beneath your glorious ass.

[ gold-trimmed, lined with hawk feathers. ]

I'm better at listening... than I am at giving advice.
But I really am growing up. I'm better at handling myself when I'm upset - I'm better at reasoning out why someone's behaviour is getting to me and putting a stop to it rather than... rolling over.
When i say "I'm not doing anything wrong just by being myself", it's something I believe? I don't have to force myself to believe it anymore - it just comes naturally. Even if I'm still nervous about... what if I say something wrong, or what if I do something stupid, or what if people don't like me, or... or any of that shit, I don't-- dwell. Anymore.
So.

So.
I don't know.
I guess I just - want to tell you that I'm better than I used to be. And I want to be here for you, like you always have been for me. I want you to feel like you can rely on me and I want to carry you through anything that goes on in your head.
I guess I'm asking you to just talk to me if things ever get bad? Or - even if they don't and you just need to... say something.
I can do that. I can be here for you.

[h2no]

you've come very far, owain
i'm so proud of you

[it feels a little insincere to say so over text, but... he doesn't mean it any less. it's genuinely uplifting to see owain manage to recover from what had happened with poe-- archie, if pressed, might admit he was worried he'd never be able to get past it, especially given his reluctance to try therapy.

thank fuck for peter, he supposes.]

i don't feel like i can't [not a lie; right now he doesn't feel like he couldn't, but a few months ago? wew lad.] and it's not a testament to your character or anything that i don't do it a lot
it's a problem. i'm bad at talking about stuff.
i don't want it to stay that way, and it won't, because i've been going to therapy on and off since... fucking october.

so i'll try
because i know you can do it