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[h2no]

[he's not really sure how to respond for a good few moments. there's no notable delay, but archie's brain certainly takes what feels like an eternity to process the simple question. he settles on a reply that's actually truthful, for once, not just hitting him back with the obvious "i'm fine" lie.]

i'm getting there, owain. it's taking a while because of various set backs, but i'm still trying.
i think if i can get through something as bad as the relic on top of matt being ported out then i can probably pull myself out of anything.
though having people around to help pick my fat ass up when i trip and fall down a sewer hole certainly helps.

[shadowglitter]

I want to be that. For you. I want to be the emotional pillow beneath your glorious ass.

[ gold-trimmed, lined with hawk feathers. ]

I'm better at listening... than I am at giving advice.
But I really am growing up. I'm better at handling myself when I'm upset - I'm better at reasoning out why someone's behaviour is getting to me and putting a stop to it rather than... rolling over.
When i say "I'm not doing anything wrong just by being myself", it's something I believe? I don't have to force myself to believe it anymore - it just comes naturally. Even if I'm still nervous about... what if I say something wrong, or what if I do something stupid, or what if people don't like me, or... or any of that shit, I don't-- dwell. Anymore.
So.

So.
I don't know.
I guess I just - want to tell you that I'm better than I used to be. And I want to be here for you, like you always have been for me. I want you to feel like you can rely on me and I want to carry you through anything that goes on in your head.
I guess I'm asking you to just talk to me if things ever get bad? Or - even if they don't and you just need to... say something.
I can do that. I can be here for you.

[h2no]

you've come very far, owain
i'm so proud of you

[it feels a little insincere to say so over text, but... he doesn't mean it any less. it's genuinely uplifting to see owain manage to recover from what had happened with poe-- archie, if pressed, might admit he was worried he'd never be able to get past it, especially given his reluctance to try therapy.

thank fuck for peter, he supposes.]

i don't feel like i can't [not a lie; right now he doesn't feel like he couldn't, but a few months ago? wew lad.] and it's not a testament to your character or anything that i don't do it a lot
it's a problem. i'm bad at talking about stuff.
i don't want it to stay that way, and it won't, because i've been going to therapy on and off since... fucking october.

so i'll try
because i know you can do it