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[fehus]

as a corpse i think probably we shouldn't vivisect corpses.

[shadowglitter]

You would be surprised how often a moral objection to vivisection has hindered me in my life.

[fehus]

i wonder if anybody's vivisected my corpse? i wanted to be cremated. this still bugs me so much even tho it's the most cliche undead thing to care about. i don't wanna take the karmic chance vivisecting someone else when i'm up for tomb-raiding grabs too.

[shadowglitter]

[ again, another little delay. feels sort of bad for talking about corpses now. ]

I think you're allowed to care about undead things when you're undead.
I kind of thought your body was saved and brought back to life when you went to Valhalla, but I guess that's not how it works? Seems kind of naive to think that, suddenly.

[fehus]

[Magnus doesn't feel bad, since he started it. they're weird and morbid, what else is new?]

it's not naive. it's complicated to explain so i usually just leave it at "i'm a zombie," which sort of implies reanimation of one organic thing. but no this isn't my original body. it's a sequel to the original provided by norse-odin, with a bunch of upgrades and not full of holes, broken bones, and formaldehyde.

[fehus]

[wait. Odin doesn't like zombie talk]

sorry that was graphic. i'm just annoyed they did the wake stuff to me. it. w/e

[fehus]

let's circle back to your other ideas. i'm not convinced an unmarked box is the way to go, bc then you won't get to talk to him?

[shadowglitter]

[ he doesn't like zombie talk, no, but he does like learning more about magnus, even sort of sad, existential shit like this. try as he might to say or come up with something supportive, it all just sounds kind of bland or macabre or unhelpful and he's not sure he settles on anything useful in the end. but. ]

I think you're allowed to be annoyed by that. It's kind of hard to know you might not have had your wishes acknowledged or your agency validated. It's probably a little dehumanizing to think your body was kind of disrespected? Given an ending you didn't want, kind of thing. But.
IDK. Being buried wouldn't be so bad, if that's what happened. Returning to the earth kind of suits you more than cremation.

[ stares. weird and morbid. moves on ]

The goal with the box thing was to make him want to talk to me? So I looked like the cool guy.
I guess I kind of hate that, though, actually. I want him to be the center of attention, not me.

1/2

[fehus]

i'm not sure i was buried. idk what they do with unclaimed bodies. it's not that.

[Magnus pauses; types a little more slowly, more revealingly (still weird and morbid, maybe, but there's no avoiding it)]

my mom and i said we'd scatter each other's ashes in the blue mountains. it was our favourite hiking spot. hers are there now, but mine aren't. i know it doesn't really matter, since i'm still sort of around, and it's not like anybody alive knew my last wishes or cared, but what's left of me is in the wrong place.

[it's the only place a small part of them could be together, since Magnus doesn't know where her soul is; Magnus is moving on, moving forward, but there's a restlessness in those things he can't (won't) be able to settle]

[fehus]

if you want ronan to be the centre of attention you could just talk to him. i trust you?

[he wouldn't be talking about his burial plans with just anybody, after all]

you don't have to try to be something you aren't.