shadowglitter | ic contact

[ brief hesitation. ]

No.

[ he's gotta figure out how to spin this - saying he should leave only to take it back because peter asked him to. gotta make it casual. blame it on debra, maybe.

maybe.

or. ]

If it were up to me, we'd never stop talking? Day in and day out. Constant call, like, all the time. You'd be in my ear and even if we were far away doing different things we could just zone out and hear each other's day, and like-- give each other updates. Like, ah, shit! I totally stepped in mud just now!, and then I'd laugh and call you stupid and we'd go back to being quiet for a while, doing our own thing. Is that nice or weird? I can't really tell. Half the time.

[Peter looks down at his hands and lets out a huffing breath, cheek puffed out almost comically because wow? Wow. What is this. What is this? His skin feels hot and he wants to crawl out of his shirt, curl up in bed and drown under the sheets or in the shower because he feels like there's something burning up in him all of a sudden. And the smoke is threatening to choke him from the inside out.

This isn't good. No, no, no, no, no.]

kinda sounds like what we do
only with no filter on either of us taking a leak
that part's kinda weird, maybe like
realistically there's some periods of muting going on
otherwise
id be behind that

[ odin laughs, quiet and happy, cutting through the nervous energy of his pacing. debra's walkie talkie picks it up, and it goes straight to peter's ear. ]

Okay. So. Do you want to try that? For a day? Not while we're on the show, because, like, the cameras would be able to eavesdrop if we were on voice. But-- Like, when we're back home? 'Cause, like, I've actually been thinking about this for a while? Every now and then I'll think of something funny and I'll want to tell you about it but then I forget to because I get distracted by something dumb. Or, like, I'll remember, and I'll send it to you, but then we only talk for like an hour and I sit there once we're done all, like, "fuck, I miss him, we didn't talk enough but I don't know what to say anymore to keep this going naturally". But then. But then, like, we'll talk for hours. Sometimes. And it still, like. It sort of always feels like I never talk to you enough? Even when I'm sleeping over. But.

[ hesitation, again. ]

Yeah. I don't know what I'm saying? All this mental text-y stuff is bad for filtering or whatever.

[Peter can't seem to decide if he has an appetite or not, twisting oreos apart and just sort of stacking the cookie halves separate from the creme ones. His stomach feels all clenched up again and even though this feels familiar and he relates to it, he feels a bit sick. Like a cool tendril of something is crawling down his spine and making everything uncomfortable. He is uncomfortable.]

we'll sort it out after this. sounds like a cool challenge
i know we cant rly talk here much but
we can keep trying to text instead?
cuz i miss talking to you too man. a lot

Yeah, for sure. Besides, like. I'll need your support. For the rest of this. It's really weird to think I'm gonna be someone's boyfriend in a few weeks. Off the market or whatever. I've never been a boyfriend before? Not technically, at least. You think I'll be okay at it?

[Oh look, one of those long funny pauses.]

yeah
they uh
will be lucky to have you

[ zero hesitation in his reply. ]

OH MY GOD THAT SOUNDS SO FAKE TIS IS WH Y YOU SAID WE'D BE A DISASTER BECAUSE I FUCKING SUCK AT DATING AND YOU CAN SMELL IT A MILE AWAY IM QUITTING THE SHOW

DiNt Sy ThaT

THAT SH OW I S TOS OU NDED!!

is it in your contract tho that you have to pick someone?

just curious

[ wheezing. wheezing. wheezing even as he's pushed down the hallway to where he needs to do an ad campaign for the show. w he e ze ]

Hng? Hngng? Oh. Yeah. I gotta. Or I'll lose my money and probably never work in this industry again. I don't want that. I like being filthy rich.

oh. shit. well.
we'll make this work extra hard then, ok

Yeah. I mean, it's not like I have to actually date anyone. Just, pick one. But I'm really fucking lonely, man. I don't wanna feel alone like this. Anymore.

remember the whole talk we just went through of how you need to find someone who wants you for you, like you want them for them and not settling even tho - you might wanna, or whatever? remember that? i remember that. and it's still applicable here. okay? okay.

don't rush things. let ith appen or not happen
it will work out. got it? okay.
cool.

I knooow. I just meant, Like, I hope it works out. It'll suck if it gets down to the wire and I just have to pick someone I don't care about because I'm panicking? I want the good stuff. Big ol' good tasty love. That's all. Hnengh.

repeat after me: it will all work out

It'll all work out. If you're there. And if the volcano doesn't erupt.

ill be there

and lmao thats
is it
real?
fuck

It is as real as it is active. I'm hoping it'll erupt for the finale.

okay, that'd be sick
preferably w/o us dying but yeah
sick

I mean. We'll come back. I did make everyone sign that waiver. About the death.

slightly morbid turn but:
isn't that still kinda weird?
like it's not something i can ask people who have died about
but to be able to die and then come back, man
i kinda wonder what thats like

but anyway
ahem
i should let you keep filming?
is it cool if i hang in your room when im off?

I mean, they're probably not our actual bodies, right? I imagine when we die here we die for good. And then we're remade by the nanites as clones with all of our memories and thoughts in tact. Right? Science! Hahaha. Yeah, of course. Hang wherever you want. If someone tries to give you shit for it, send them my way?

oh my god dont say that thats freaky

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

1/

2/

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

1/