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[fehus]

um

i guess a general

how

[quickfingers]

how


what. how it happened? how we did it. how it felt???

[quickfingers]

and By D iD it i M eAN

daTe

SEcRETLy

[shadowglitter]

You already fucked up?

[fehus]

he's fast

[shadowglitter]

Not in sex.

Everyone always assumes he's fast in sex.
Not in sex.
He's good in sex.
OK?
Know this.

[quickfingers]

[fehus]

fwd: You already fucked up?

[shadowglitter]

I didn't fuck up.
He defied my limitations.
The limitations that I supplied specifically and in totality for him.
All I did was set up camp on the barren wasteland he turned the fertile forests of our conversation into.

[fehus]

that's nice that you tried. it's less nice that you stopped trying bc he fucked up right out of the gate. so i think it all just sort of cancels out.

[fehus]

so i guess this didn't happen. which is a relief.

[quickfingers]

you know when you defend me, i appreciate it
but sometimes when you say things like that
in a manner like so

[quickfingers]

you make things
worse

[shadowglitter]

[ smacks peter in the side.






and moves to the end of the bed to avoid recompense. ]

[quickfingers]

[ ST A RES ]

[quickfingers]

I DID DN T

[shadowglitter]

Fucked

up

so

bad.

[fehus]

it doesn't sound like you meant date secretly?/ we don't have to talk about physical stuff

i know i sent you a picture of a flourishing hickey colony but that's bc the only thing harder than doing intimate stuff is talking about intimate stuff instead of just getting beheaded or something

[quickfingers]

I REALLY DID MEAN DATE
IM NOT
IM NOT A HORN DOG
AAAAAAAAALL THE TIME

[quickfingers]

I JUST PANICKED BUT LISTEN
listen.


what do you want to know
i;ll SPeAK it

[fehus]

how you dated! that's what we were talking about?

[quickfingers]

ri ght


um



well we weren't able to actually date. like. our shoeboxes full of baggage, confusion and strong feelings were shoved under the bed while IMH was filming but like. we got to steal away moments to ourselves? which honestly was kinda good to cement things together, without the pressure of other people while we adjusted to the changes we brought on ourselves? sure, there was the crushing pressure of the impending threat of being discovered or sued but like. We took it at our own pace and honestly, it helped.

[shadowglitter]

Yeah, going at our own pace really helped. Especially because - for me, at least, a lot of it was kind of a whirlwind until the road trip? It was all exciting and nerve-wracking and explosive and when we finally hit the road in Peter's car and just got out of town for a while, spending our nights together under the stars and shit - that was when it felt real.

I mean, it always felt real, but that's when it felt, like. Total.

[fehus]

do you not have to date date if you're friends for a long time first?

[shadowglitter]

We kind of didn't date date because of the whole secret celebrity super-pressure thing? But. I mean, you don't have to do anything, when it comes to dating. Ever. No matter what the circumstances are.

A date is just time you spend with somebody you like who makes you happy? I'm happiest with Peter when we're just chilling - I loved the road trip because we just got away together and talked. I don't think anything in life makes me feel as good as I do in that moment where, like, I'm putting my key in the apartment door and knowing I have hours of just being with him to look forward to. You know?

Don't feel like you have to buy Ronan fancy dinners or whatever if that's not what he's into. Or what you're into. Just set aside an evening for stuff that makes you happy, or stuff that might be fun to do together.