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OK, no more death talk. Effective immediately, I am immortal and so are you. Like the burning flames of our love.

I've just kinda been wondering how the election's gonna go. Rooty was a joke, and that's fine - but what happens if she actually takes home a sizeable bite of votes?

Or the [ GETS CHOKED UP, TYPES THROUGH IT ] light of the moon.

Then - ideally - you'll be able to take her spot. Show the world what a guy like you is made of.
You're fucking amazing. I know you were saying that if this led to a real political career for you, you wanted to start slow - but I don't think you would struggle with ambassadorship if it landed in your lap. I think you'd do really well with it, honestly.

And the warmth of the sun. ;)

Do you think I'd have to wear a suit or something? Those make me horny now, thanks to you.

Maaaaaybe.
I could blow you while you were giving a speech to the city. Or at least while you were sitting at your big cool guy desk.
That's the kind of amorous adventure worthy of the great Peter Maximoff's presidential dick.
So.

That thought alone is worth all the anxiety?

[ A d e l a y. ]

Don't make me tent out here, pls.

I guess I'm kinda... anxious still. But not too wanna-puke kinda anxious, but just. Unsettled. I haven't felt this way in years, like I've got even more energy in me than normal that needs to be let out. Even if Rooty doesn't win, she could be in the running to take over if the other(s) port out. Weird energy. Like even if I lose, there's still a chance I'm gonna have to have Thoughts about policies and shit.

I guess I'm kinda wigging out a little.

Wigging out's okay. Wigging out and feeling all nervous just means you're on the brink of something that could be really good.

You're not gonna have to go through all this alone? You've got me, Foggy, all the people who voted you in. If it works out, you get a chance to speak up. It's... exciting, man. I'm so excited every time I think about how great you're gonna be.

If you could be a voice for the mutants back home - stand up for their rights in your own way, not like your dad - would you want to do that?

It's... complicated.

[That's a lie, it's not. Peter needs another second, fumbling through text.]

Yes? I guess. No, as well. I mean.
No, I'd always sort of figure that there are better people than me out there. People like Charles who have a lot more experience leading, people like Jean who just are born leaders. I'm neither. I've just lived my life kinda sitting back and letting life happen to me, and that only recently changed and I still don't know how that happened.

But then on the other hand, yes? I kind do wanna... inspire someone. There was a mutant back home who in the 70s, stood up to my dad. She risked her life to save the life of the President, who he was trying to kill. She could make herself look like other people, and wore the President's face, and offered herself up to my dad on live TV. She kicked his ass, but not before the world saw this mutant... do something, to protect humanity. To keep the peace.

A lot of us young mutants look up to her for that, and I kinda... wish that one day maybe I'd have some kinda impact like that on someone else? But that feels so... different. Is it?

[ Part of why Odin gravitated to Peter so strongly was because they shared this - underlying feeling of not being enough. They were both always two sides of the same coin; brilliant and accomplished and heroic but standing in shoes that felt too big for them. Peter's beautiful and kind and smart but Odin's always known he feels overshadowed by the men and women in his life who stood tall, stood complete, and who earned their status and their names through the choices they made rather than just the fates they were born with. Peter's power and Odin's heritage give them an advantage, but it's-- different, when no matter who they are, they're still just standing on the shoulders of giants.

But for Odin, a positive part of their relationship - maybe the biggest part - has been the self-confidence he's found in himself the more these months went on. Peter made him feel worthy of his name and proud of the things he's done in a way that he struggled with despite everything he's lived through, and he wants to make Peter feel that same sense of security and worth. He hopes he has. He hopes he can. ]

Maybe. My dad risked his life every day and finally gave it up to save me - Lucina's been a natural leader since the first time I laid eyes on her, and her father was always the same. I've tried to lead people and I've tried to protect the people I care about but it's always... it doesn't feel the same? When I stood behind my dad I felt like he could do anything, and when Lucina was by my side back home, it always felt like someone was taking care of me. Shielded. I don't think I can make people feel like that? Protected, to that degree. If I said "stand behind me, I'll keep you safe!", people would think, oh, great, we're in the hands of this guy. So i get... it. But.

But I don't think that means I'm incapable of protecting people. I might be an idiot, and I might suck at reading the room or taking the right tone sometimes, but I think I'm capable of throwing myself into something and seeing it through, and maybe that's all I need to be... some kind of guardian. Right? And it's, like, the same for leadership. You might not have all the gravitas of your dad or Fake President Lady, but you're...
Actually, you're a lot like my mom? Don't start psychoanalyzing our relationship, but.
She was always at the forefront of the war trying to keep everyone's morale up... she exhausted herself keeping everyone going. She was funny and warm and happy and it made everybody keep their spirits up. Made everybody remember what they were fighting for. You're kind of like that? A light in the darkness. The moon.

Besides, you inspire me every day. I know I don't really count, 'cause I'm in love with you, or whatever, but I'd be so depressed if I didn't have you in my life. You make me want to do what's right, you make me want to be better. No ordinary man could pull me from the ennui of my collapsing soul and revitalize my spark of phantasmagoric mortality like you have.

so i'm like your mom, huh

thanks for - the support. (seriously. I was/ am kinda still wigging out but this helps.) I'm not sure what I'd do if I didn't have you and other people behind me right now. sure as hell wouldn't be here trying this, that much I know.

also: you make me feel safe.

You're like my mom in a way that's sweet for me to say and not weird or creepy or weird at all? You're like my mom, but in a hot way.
You're like a sexy version of my mom.

Wait, that's not good.
Hold on.

"You're like my mom" is a sentiment cloaked in sensitivity and affection. We started as brothers. It only makes sense that as our relationship progresses, so, too, do the weird things we say.
That's

I nailed it.

Anyway.
Pfft.
Shut up?
You make me feel safe.
You don't need to thank me for support. You support me, too. You're the bones that I stand on.

I'm saying a lot of creepy things today.

Please don't stand on my boner, though? Please.

You're the bones that I stand on and the bone that I sit... on...

So.

I love you.

wanna go get taco bell?

I kind of don't like that we might be ending the conversation before you laugh at my joke or talk about how sweet I am?

i kind of like that it is ending like this bc im hungry

Edited 2018-09-22 02:27 (UTC)

I'm hungry for validation? My stomach screams with the rusty ache of a thousand empty caverns, each begging to feed on the spelunkers that get trapped within their maw.

Or somet hi ng.
Let's get food.

wanna do something stupid instead
and by stupid i still mean in relation to food
but like

wanna go to some stupid
expensive place
on a date

That sounds so stupid?

Do you wanna wear stupid suits and like, stay here for 30 minutes while I run down to Heropa and get you a stupid bouquet of stupid roses?

I know right

only if you wanna wear cologne and ties that coordinate w/ each other.

I want that? Wait.

Wait?
Can I suggest something, like.
Genuinely stupid?
Like, actually stupid. Not pretend stupid.

not the tailored suit for rooty thing again right

That isn't stupid. I would never call that stupid.

Do you remember our first kiss?

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