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If you were like that, you would've tried to hit on me by now? I'm straight up the hottest guy in America.

But you're inexperienced, not dumb.
I feel like you're good at seeing people as they are. It took a lot of time before I stopped assuming the best or the worst about someone based on surface level shades of them I built up in my head. I thought my parents were flawless and could do no wrong, I thought I was letting everyone down by not measuring up to them, etc etc etc etc. And like.

I don't know. I guess I'm just trying to say you're good at giving people chances, but you're also good at being firm when they do something you don't agree with? It took me a while to get to that level of self-assurance.
And maybe that's not infallible, maybe you're not always going to get it right, maybe being able to find balance in your relationships isn't enough to stop you from making mistakes or needing advice, but you're getting off on a better foot than I did. My first romantic entanglement was with Poe, so like.
I guess I just think you wouldn't be with someone who runs a high risk of hurting you because you're kind and strong enough to value both your time and theirs, and you've always been honest when things make you uncomfortable. You have been with me, at least.

[it's typical of Owain to slip such heartfelt feelings into a casual conversation; Magnus rereads it a few times, because while he's not sure Owain is right (not that he doubts Ronan; he doubts himself), it makes his chest warm to think that his friend believes in him and his character so much. it sounds like Owain is describing someone worthwhile, and it's a little overwhelming that that person is actually him]

thanks. and you're right that he has a lot more than looks going for him. i think, anyway.

what kind of thing is normal? when it comes to friends and boyfriends meeting and hanging out.

Oh, yeah. I guess I should've said he probably had more going for him than that, too. Whoops.
Is he even hot? I can't see it, tbh.

[ ruining the atmosphere ]

Of all the people to ask for suggestions on normal friendly friend meetup meetings, I'm probably the worst person to come to?

[ he bought alex weird toxic harlequin clothes when they first met. he fucked up magnus's tent, screaming as he swung a sword over his head. he and peter first met in person in fucking space after 2 months of talking over the phone and being too awkward to break the ice and hang out in person. honestly. ]

it's fine.

what happened to being the cool brother with all the advice?

It doesn't count when I have to give advice related to me.

Also, like, [ small delay - ]
I'm actually kind of scared of meeting him.
What if he doesn't like me? What if I'm, like, exceptionally annoying. What if I try to be funny and lie about having sex in his bed ten times?
I don't wanna screw this up for you.

you won't screw it up for me. plus he's super unflappable. he makes me look laughably flapped.

Okay. Well.

Okay.
If I ever meet him, just, like, tell me if I say anything dumb.
Like if I start asking weird questions about how his body works if it's made of dust. Like I could derail the conversation by talking about poop or dicks or something really easily. I'm doing that now? I'm typing this and looking at what I'm writing like, "Odin, you've talked about dicks enough in this conversation, just let it go" but I'm still typing and I'm still about to press enter and I'm watching my pinky finger hover above the enter key and here it goes. I'm pressing it.

i'm not censoring you? and he doesn't mind talking about dicks or poop or whatever. he's a teenaged farmer.

pretend he was just meeting peter. what advice would you give me about that happening?

Edited 2018-08-19 08:10 (UTC)

Probably "don't make eye contact, he can smell fear".

hmm m

Realistically I'd probably start going on and on and on about how much I love him and about how happy he makes me. And I'd start panicking all like, "don't screw this up! he has to like you! if he doesn't like you, i'll literally die!".
And then I'd... probably cry. And. Then Peter would realize I'm overly emotional and he'd leave me, I guess? But then he'd realize he loves me too much to ever be away from me and it would be like that third act of a four act romance anime where everything sucks but it's just a last ditch effort to introduce conflict to a story that lacks any.
And then we'd ... kiss and ... this is why I need another journal for my fanfiction. Ugh.

I guess realistically I'd say that he's a good dude and he'll be happy just to meet someone new? And that nobody should get in over their head when talking to him because he's great and chill and happy and he's not going to start a scene if someone asks him about how he shits accidentally.
But IDK.

Peter's a dork, Ronan's a goth. These are two very different animals. I would know. I'm gother than anyone.

heading this off: ronan shits normal.

2 goths and 2 dorks seems like it'd be fine to me?

I wasn't actually going to ask him about that but I can't deny there's some degree of me that feels as if a mystery's been solved.

I guess.
Ugh.
Auuahauhauh.
Okay, well. It'll happen. One day.
I guess.

what are you being shy for now? it doesn't have to be five months in the future.

I guess this is just the first time I've been in this position since I first started feeling like I don't have to try so hard around other people?
It's not like I go to job interviews or have any of Peter's family to meet. This is one of very few possible situations in which I'll have to be on my best behaviour to impress somebody who I think is kind of important.

i don't want your best behaviour? i'm not embarrassed of your regular behaviour. and you don't need to impress anybody. he won't be trying to impress. he's too cool and edgy to do stuff like that.

It's important to me that everything goes okay, though. I'll try to chill, but.
Man.

Man, you would date an edgelord.

i get it. help me plan something chill and you don't have to stress about it. it'll all be knowns.

you're the edgelord peter's dating, shut up.

You could dress up like a burglar and break into his house? Then I can come along and tackle you and be like "stop right there, thief!" and he'll think I'm a hero. Maybe.

he doesn't care about stuff. he's a spoiled rich boy that doesn't get the value of money.

he'd probably be like "take it i'm busy planting potatoes. lol"

OK, well now I just kind of low-key feel like you're fucking your reflection. Your rich reflection.

You could kick up all his potatoes and I could stop you? Wait, you garden boys would break up over something like that.

wwe're not doing that?

tho it's true we'd never fuck with eachother's potatoes.

I know, but I was trying to be dramatic! I put impact behind each and every single word that absconds the confines of my mouth!!! My words are nimble vagabonds fleeing my mind like tomb-raiding adventurers escaping into the jungle of our conversation with piles of cursed gold under each arm!

Maybe we could just go see a movie or something.

you're really inconsistent with your safe sex messages.

how do you get to be the hero there? maybe peter can be a plant. like somebody who won't turn off their cell phone or keeps loudly asking "who's that?" every time a new character appears.

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